This Tuesday we were put in our first sermon groups (we will have two) and my first one will be on "The Cross". Sadly, I don't really remember signing up for that one, but I am excited to see what comes from it. Obviously, the cross is a big part of my life and has definitely shaped me into who I am, but at the moment there is no one big revelation about the event that I feel rocks me to the core.
In hopes of stirring up ideas and revelation, I went to the "Come, HS" meeting at the church and started brainstorming- a fabulous atmosphere for getting into the flow. In scribbling down everything that came to mind about and surrounding the cross and why it is important and such and so, I made a discovery! Or a re-discovery, if you will: I love the book of Isaiah. Truly, it is my favorite. Lately I have been desiring more of the Love of God to be revealing in me and to me and that I might understand it better. Omg, Isaiah is such a book of the Father's love and it was so very refreshing to flip through and read all the underlining (which is a lot) and soak it in again. Let me share with you....
- Tell the righteous it will be well with them.
- I have heard your prayer and seen your tears.
- Your guilt is taken away and you sin atoned for.
- God is with us.
- The Lord has established Zion, and in her His afflicted people will find refuge.
- Surely this is our God; we trusted in Him, and He saved us.
- Lord, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us.
- Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!
- I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you...I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
- Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
- I will go before you.
- I will not forget you!
- My unfailing love for you will not be shaken.
- You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace.
- Before they call I will answer, while they are still speaking, I will hear.
And so much more... be blessed. I leave you with a favorite:
"In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength."
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
still moving
Monday 15 of us rode on the Chariots of Fire (a bus) down to Niagara Falls courtesy of our wonderful tour guide Mel. It was a bit overcast and had just rained but the Falls were still amazing of course. Oddly enough they looked a lot smaller than I remember them from several years ago. We also had the opportunity to walk around Niagara-on-the-Lake, a small, quaint town on Lake Ontario that is absolutely exquisite. The Prince of Wales Hotel is here - quite ornate and ritzy. A lovely way to spend our day off.
I turned in my first book report Tuesday. The Heart Module has to read The Tale of Three Kings and The Shack. I wrote on the former this time and will be rereading the latter sometime soon. I definitely recommend Three Kings to anyone; it's by Gene Edwards and is a tale on brokenness and how God desires to use broken vessels. It's rather short with really easy-to-read chapters but is best when read slowly for absorption.
This week Rick D'Orazio is speaking with us on Identity and it has been fabulous. Here's a quote: "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him." That is to say, when we finally realize and are comfortable with who we are, who He created us to be, and who He says we are then He can truly be glorified in and through our lives. (All goes back to being a vessel; the vessel has to accept its identity before it can function as it's supposed to.) Several of us have had the opportunity to stand before a giant mirror at the front of the room and ask the question, "What do you see?" That is the question of the week: What do you see? Follow that up with: What does God see? Are they the same? They should be. We are princes and princesses and we are loved. Many know this, but do you really believe it? Do you act like you believe it?
blessings
I turned in my first book report Tuesday. The Heart Module has to read The Tale of Three Kings and The Shack. I wrote on the former this time and will be rereading the latter sometime soon. I definitely recommend Three Kings to anyone; it's by Gene Edwards and is a tale on brokenness and how God desires to use broken vessels. It's rather short with really easy-to-read chapters but is best when read slowly for absorption.
This week Rick D'Orazio is speaking with us on Identity and it has been fabulous. Here's a quote: "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him." That is to say, when we finally realize and are comfortable with who we are, who He created us to be, and who He says we are then He can truly be glorified in and through our lives. (All goes back to being a vessel; the vessel has to accept its identity before it can function as it's supposed to.) Several of us have had the opportunity to stand before a giant mirror at the front of the room and ask the question, "What do you see?" That is the question of the week: What do you see? Follow that up with: What does God see? Are they the same? They should be. We are princes and princesses and we are loved. Many know this, but do you really believe it? Do you act like you believe it?
blessings
Sunday, October 24, 2010
More
God knows our hearts, you know? My main prayer for the past few weeks and especially this last one going into the Mountain Mover conference was to know more of God's love, and not just to know it because I have known it all my life, but to understand it more and to truly have a heart change as a result. On both Thursday and Friday evenings someone prayed for me and word-for-word echoed my prayer to God. Isn't it amazing that He so intimately knows the desires of our hearts that He lets us know He knows? And more than that it shows that what we are asking for is the exact thing that He wants to give us. cool. And I'm learning never to be satisfied. If my God is infinite and He wants to give me all good things then His provision never runs dry and I'm determined to always say, "More, Lord."
Thursday I had the opportunity to go out to lunch with Amber and her mom who came up from PA; so nice to eat off campus for a change. John Arnott spoke in the afternoon and Johnny Enlow in the evening. Enlow is from Atlanta and wrote a book on the Seven Mountains of Influence (Ed, Gov, Media, Religion, Arts, Business, & something else). He spoke on how we most effectively affect change on these mountains - I recommend his books. I was on the ministry team again and after praying for people hung out with all the students who were getting affected by the Holy Spirit-so fun. Friday Heidi Baker spoke in the morning and evening sessions with Johnny in the afternoon. Heidi is amazing, she has such a pure heart for God's and is so simply passionate about intimacy with Him. I wasn't on ministry team that night but took part anyway; all those who hadn't felt like they knew the Father's love came to the front and we just gave them hugs and prayed for them. Such an opportunity to show God's love. Heidi also prayed for those called to the lost and those on the mountains of Arts, Education, and in the sciences.
Saturday = even better. Carol spoke on forgiveness in the morning. I could do this every week: continually in the presence of God; soaking in His love, peace, and joy; and seeing God touching so many people around me bringing breakthrough and restoration. Saturday nights mean fire tunnels often so in the pre-ministry time we of course had to practice so most of us were already Holy Spirit drunk before we even went into worship. It's really exciting for me since I don't typically manifest in the Spirit but I have been sensing more and more as we have been here. Worship was good and I was dancing in the back again when two guys came over and 'ambushed' me resulting in me on the floor for the remainder of the session. In spasms. I'm learning the difference between feeling with your brain and "feeling" with your spirit. So I was definitely ready to go when we were called to start the fire tunnels; so cool seeing the Spirit fall on others and seeing yourself being used as a vessel. The party for some of us continued til about 3am. So good.
More to come. Peace.
Thursday I had the opportunity to go out to lunch with Amber and her mom who came up from PA; so nice to eat off campus for a change. John Arnott spoke in the afternoon and Johnny Enlow in the evening. Enlow is from Atlanta and wrote a book on the Seven Mountains of Influence (Ed, Gov, Media, Religion, Arts, Business, & something else). He spoke on how we most effectively affect change on these mountains - I recommend his books. I was on the ministry team again and after praying for people hung out with all the students who were getting affected by the Holy Spirit-so fun. Friday Heidi Baker spoke in the morning and evening sessions with Johnny in the afternoon. Heidi is amazing, she has such a pure heart for God's and is so simply passionate about intimacy with Him. I wasn't on ministry team that night but took part anyway; all those who hadn't felt like they knew the Father's love came to the front and we just gave them hugs and prayed for them. Such an opportunity to show God's love. Heidi also prayed for those called to the lost and those on the mountains of Arts, Education, and in the sciences.
Saturday = even better. Carol spoke on forgiveness in the morning. I could do this every week: continually in the presence of God; soaking in His love, peace, and joy; and seeing God touching so many people around me bringing breakthrough and restoration. Saturday nights mean fire tunnels often so in the pre-ministry time we of course had to practice so most of us were already Holy Spirit drunk before we even went into worship. It's really exciting for me since I don't typically manifest in the Spirit but I have been sensing more and more as we have been here. Worship was good and I was dancing in the back again when two guys came over and 'ambushed' me resulting in me on the floor for the remainder of the session. In spasms. I'm learning the difference between feeling with your brain and "feeling" with your spirit. So I was definitely ready to go when we were called to start the fire tunnels; so cool seeing the Spirit fall on others and seeing yourself being used as a vessel. The party for some of us continued til about 3am. So good.
More to come. Peace.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Move the Mountains
Awesome week in the making. Monday through today SoM students sat in on a Soaking Seminar held by Connie and Jeremy Sinnott; I really enjoyed the teaching on 'intimacy' by Connie and the animation of Jeremy as he spoke. It was a good prep course to have before a conference. Tonight started the Mountain Movers conference here at the church which is focusing on two of the 'seven mountains of influence': business and government. Jerry Anderson, president of La Red Business Network spoke tonight sharing on the impact that this program has had around the world in governments and businesses just by bringing principles and values back in the picture. No denying that the transformation that our nations, governments, and business desperately need lies in the lack of morals, values, and conviction of principles. Already prisons, militaries, and judicial systems in Guatemala, Columbia, Mexico, Argentina, Ukraine, and other nations have seen drastic improvements in crime rates and corruption by teaching values to their leaders. Awesome. It's circulating in the US too; yay. So, how's your character?
What's God doing? Shaking the mountains; in me, in us, in the air. Wow, is He good. Even at the beginning of the week I was excited to see all the things that God is going to do and bring about this week (I've been praying to get completely smothered in His presence) and today was no exception and He did not disappoint. The Freshwind band played tonight and are typically rockin' but they started off slower tonight which went against how I was feeling; I was ready to go! I went to the back where there was space to dance and just went at it and the band finally caught on. ;) His holiness was everywhere and I couldn't worship hard enough. He is so so worthy. Ahh, it was so good and I was so sweaty by the end. Fabulous! Ministry time was good too; I prayed for others with Kristyn from my outreach team and because there aren't as many people at this conference we had time to pray for each other. I love God.
Peace.
What's God doing? Shaking the mountains; in me, in us, in the air. Wow, is He good. Even at the beginning of the week I was excited to see all the things that God is going to do and bring about this week (I've been praying to get completely smothered in His presence) and today was no exception and He did not disappoint. The Freshwind band played tonight and are typically rockin' but they started off slower tonight which went against how I was feeling; I was ready to go! I went to the back where there was space to dance and just went at it and the band finally caught on. ;) His holiness was everywhere and I couldn't worship hard enough. He is so so worthy. Ahh, it was so good and I was so sweaty by the end. Fabulous! Ministry time was good too; I prayed for others with Kristyn from my outreach team and because there aren't as many people at this conference we had time to pray for each other. I love God.
Peace.
Monday, October 18, 2010
He Still Redeems
Wow...how to start....
Thursday was a super hard day for me. Mike Pilavachi taught on Insecurity in the morning and we missed our second session due to everyone soaking. I didn't really have a relaxing time of it, but instead I was superiorly irritated and aggitated. It put me in one of those blah moods for quite sometime. At CBN that night, even though I didn't really feel "into" worship I told God I would worship despite feeling anything or nothing because I know that He is good at least in my head.
Friday Mike spoke on Grace and Leadership. Fabulous teacher. For small group we went to Montana's Grill and Amber and I split some of the most delicious sweet potato fries. Yum. I went to the "Come, Holy Spirit" meeting where He softened me up a bit getting back on my good side. :)
Saturday after a bunch of mayhem and uncertainty, Erin and I went with our friends Amber and Bart to some parks north of here to take pictures. Due to some of the events surrounding the trip, it wasn't our best day and our attitudes didn't help it. (Sorry, Lord and friends) We ended the day wanting to punch something. One of the movies of the week was Cinderella Man; quite nice. I hope I will one day be a supportive wife like she.
Sunday!!! Today we started in our ministry areas which for Team Finland meant working with the youth meeting. The youth pastors happen to be out of the country so it was kinda just us with a little help. I sorta forgot what preteens act like. Wow. I got to man the donut and hot chocolate table today which was fun, but other than that, introducing myself, and participating in a game, I/we didn't do much. We will do more as we go on. After lunch, Erin, Mark, and I went downtown to sightsee and walk around. It was fabulous! Such a beautiful day and it was cool to snap pictures and just experience the wonderful city that is Toronto. Clean, big, tall, nice. We ended the walk at the CTF campus Central for church which was cool. They hold the meetings in a club which has an edgy vibe to it.
After church a group went to Tim's to hang out and we talked about SoM and such. We got a ride back with Andrew (awesome) and he took us on a drive around town and then around the airport and back through town and everywhere. The guys put on techno music and we got Holy Spirit ROCKED! It was amazing! Oh, my word! And Mark was so right in that there are dozens of portals around the airport; craziness! God is so good. I want more, and the only reason I want more is that He wants me to have more and wants to give me more! Bless Him!!
So after a few days of struggling with crap, Sunday has been awesome and God is amazing. And even more amazing than that is that He loves me and He likes me! WOW. Definitely more to come; it's conference week!
Thursday was a super hard day for me. Mike Pilavachi taught on Insecurity in the morning and we missed our second session due to everyone soaking. I didn't really have a relaxing time of it, but instead I was superiorly irritated and aggitated. It put me in one of those blah moods for quite sometime. At CBN that night, even though I didn't really feel "into" worship I told God I would worship despite feeling anything or nothing because I know that He is good at least in my head.
Friday Mike spoke on Grace and Leadership. Fabulous teacher. For small group we went to Montana's Grill and Amber and I split some of the most delicious sweet potato fries. Yum. I went to the "Come, Holy Spirit" meeting where He softened me up a bit getting back on my good side. :)
Saturday after a bunch of mayhem and uncertainty, Erin and I went with our friends Amber and Bart to some parks north of here to take pictures. Due to some of the events surrounding the trip, it wasn't our best day and our attitudes didn't help it. (Sorry, Lord and friends) We ended the day wanting to punch something. One of the movies of the week was Cinderella Man; quite nice. I hope I will one day be a supportive wife like she.
Sunday!!! Today we started in our ministry areas which for Team Finland meant working with the youth meeting. The youth pastors happen to be out of the country so it was kinda just us with a little help. I sorta forgot what preteens act like. Wow. I got to man the donut and hot chocolate table today which was fun, but other than that, introducing myself, and participating in a game, I/we didn't do much. We will do more as we go on. After lunch, Erin, Mark, and I went downtown to sightsee and walk around. It was fabulous! Such a beautiful day and it was cool to snap pictures and just experience the wonderful city that is Toronto. Clean, big, tall, nice. We ended the walk at the CTF campus Central for church which was cool. They hold the meetings in a club which has an edgy vibe to it.
After church a group went to Tim's to hang out and we talked about SoM and such. We got a ride back with Andrew (awesome) and he took us on a drive around town and then around the airport and back through town and everywhere. The guys put on techno music and we got Holy Spirit ROCKED! It was amazing! Oh, my word! And Mark was so right in that there are dozens of portals around the airport; craziness! God is so good. I want more, and the only reason I want more is that He wants me to have more and wants to give me more! Bless Him!!
So after a few days of struggling with crap, Sunday has been awesome and God is amazing. And even more amazing than that is that He loves me and He likes me! WOW. Definitely more to come; it's conference week!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Fun Fun Finland
So much to tell...this week Mike Pilavachi from the UK has been speaking with us. He is a preacher in a church north of London called Soul Survivor. He also started a ministry of the same name almost 20 years ago that hosts a huge youth festival every summer. I had never heard of him but evidently if you are from the UK, you have. Not many people get this reference, but he reminds me of Red Skelton, the comedian. He has talked about the wilderness-Moses, insecurity-Jacob, and how to be relavent to the culture. All have been quite insightful and extremely entertaining, especially for me because I enjoy dry, sarcastic, British humor.
Yesterday we all found out who is in our outreach teams and where we will be going in January. At first we were given a piece of paper with a sound on it (mine said, "A duck killing an elephant") and then blindfolded we were supposed to imitate the sound and locate others making the same sound. Wow. I just said, "quack" and hoped others would catch my drift. So I have 10 people in my group: Isaac, Philip, and Suzi from the UK; Olivia, Andrea, and Kristyn from Canada; Joe, Carter, and me from the US; and Peter from South Korea. Not very culturally diverse, haha. Then we had to go on a scavenger hunt following clues to figure out our outreach leaders. We were one of the first groups to locate them: James from Canada and Lizi from the UK. Awesome. Theeennnn, we had to sort through cut up pieces of paper to spell out the name of where we are going. Drum roll please....we are going to FINLAND!!
Reaction= I knew that Scandinavia was a common destination so I wasn't too surprised and I didn't really have any specific desires to go to any one location so I was fine with it. I look forward to our group melding together and becoming more like family, and I think it's funny I'll be going to Finland in the dead of winter considering I don't favor the cold but did promise God (and everyone) that I would not be complaining about the cold this winter. I said this meaning the winter in Canada. haha. Now I get to go somewhere even colder!! PTL I'm actually looking forward to it. I will be stocking up on cold weather gear when I go home for Christmas (family, you know what I'll be asking for!) We don't know our specific areas of focus for the trip yet but I'm praying for a real passion of the people/work in Finland and that we are truly effective for Daddy while we are there.
In other news, we also received our assignments for conference duties for the Mountain Movers Conference next week: I will be a greeter from 8:30-12:30pm every day. And we got our work duty assignments for where we will be every Thursday afternoon from here on out: I will be in the cafe. Today I washed windows, how exhilarating. I'm praying for a sort of Brother Lawrence kind of experience throughout this.
Yesterday we all found out who is in our outreach teams and where we will be going in January. At first we were given a piece of paper with a sound on it (mine said, "A duck killing an elephant") and then blindfolded we were supposed to imitate the sound and locate others making the same sound. Wow. I just said, "quack" and hoped others would catch my drift. So I have 10 people in my group: Isaac, Philip, and Suzi from the UK; Olivia, Andrea, and Kristyn from Canada; Joe, Carter, and me from the US; and Peter from South Korea. Not very culturally diverse, haha. Then we had to go on a scavenger hunt following clues to figure out our outreach leaders. We were one of the first groups to locate them: James from Canada and Lizi from the UK. Awesome. Theeennnn, we had to sort through cut up pieces of paper to spell out the name of where we are going. Drum roll please....we are going to FINLAND!!
Reaction= I knew that Scandinavia was a common destination so I wasn't too surprised and I didn't really have any specific desires to go to any one location so I was fine with it. I look forward to our group melding together and becoming more like family, and I think it's funny I'll be going to Finland in the dead of winter considering I don't favor the cold but did promise God (and everyone) that I would not be complaining about the cold this winter. I said this meaning the winter in Canada. haha. Now I get to go somewhere even colder!! PTL I'm actually looking forward to it. I will be stocking up on cold weather gear when I go home for Christmas (family, you know what I'll be asking for!) We don't know our specific areas of focus for the trip yet but I'm praying for a real passion of the people/work in Finland and that we are truly effective for Daddy while we are there.
In other news, we also received our assignments for conference duties for the Mountain Movers Conference next week: I will be a greeter from 8:30-12:30pm every day. And we got our work duty assignments for where we will be every Thursday afternoon from here on out: I will be in the cafe. Today I washed windows, how exhilarating. I'm praying for a sort of Brother Lawrence kind of experience throughout this.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving!!
We had a three day weekend for the holiday which has been lovely. Saturday I was one of about seven people in the building and spent time journaling and making collages. Quite relaxing and needed. They did show some movies that night to provide a bit of entertainment for which we were grateful of course. Sunday, I went to church and then to a friend's grandparents' house near the lake. I had not realized just how much I was missing simple things such as neighborhoods, vibrantly colored trees, houses, and not industrial-styled buildings. O wow, it was glorious. The house was absolutely adorable as well and a short walk from a park with a trail down to the lake. We were in heaven. Then we had dinner....YUM!! Properly cooked food followed by desserts! Again, o wow, it was glorious. Definitely ate more than my stomach needed but it was delightful. My friends and I stayed up quite late chatting and still planned on waking up to walk to the lake for a magnificant sunrise. Two of us managed to get down there and, as is the case with all skyscapes, the pictures do not come anywhere close to doing the beauty of God justice (but then maybe that is because He works out of grace...lol nvm bad joke). That first pink light was spectacular over the water and I really wished our school were in Mississagua instead of by the airport. And then today for dinner we had steak! Big, fat, juicy, pink steak! ...and it was followed by dessert! And now I am back ready for a new week of good times and fun; it's going to be great because that is all that God can be. Love y'all!
Friday, October 8, 2010
Blown Away
...by the love of God and how He moves in our lives. While I am so often reminded by His love for me and the place in His heart that I possess, it is so easy to slip into the mindset that He is content with a relationship with me where our only connection is me worshipping Him. Totally not true! He wants to talk back, want to give me revelation, wants me to grow, wants us to go deeper. Together. Wow, awesome.
So our healing life's hurts week just kept building in goodness. Thursday I had a major revelation of a major root in my life that caused me to live out of a scewed perspective. I went back to my list of ungodly beliefs and found that 10 out of the 11 I had dealt with were directly related to this massive root! Forgiveness and repentance followed shortly after. Thurs afternoon we had "Anger Day" where we learned how important it is to appropriately express our anger and not stuff it or bottle it up. A nice scream/wail/crying/yelling/etc. session came after. It was fabulous. Forgiveness and repentance followed.
Today we dealt with generational stuff and deliverance and now we all feel much freer, lighter, and happier. :) I consider this week quite wonderful, yet I am reminded once again that God is not done with me and is not satisfied with just giving me this amount of breakthrough. "He that started a good work in you is faithful to continue the work and carry it out to completion." Yeah, I need to get this. I walked over to the "Come, Holy Spirit" meeting at the church to chat with a friend working the sound booth, and he revealed two other MAJOR issues that have been holding me back in life and walking in the authority that I have. Wow. I am again blown away. And He is still not done with me.
PTL
So our healing life's hurts week just kept building in goodness. Thursday I had a major revelation of a major root in my life that caused me to live out of a scewed perspective. I went back to my list of ungodly beliefs and found that 10 out of the 11 I had dealt with were directly related to this massive root! Forgiveness and repentance followed shortly after. Thurs afternoon we had "Anger Day" where we learned how important it is to appropriately express our anger and not stuff it or bottle it up. A nice scream/wail/crying/yelling/etc. session came after. It was fabulous. Forgiveness and repentance followed.
Today we dealt with generational stuff and deliverance and now we all feel much freer, lighter, and happier. :) I consider this week quite wonderful, yet I am reminded once again that God is not done with me and is not satisfied with just giving me this amount of breakthrough. "He that started a good work in you is faithful to continue the work and carry it out to completion." Yeah, I need to get this. I walked over to the "Come, Holy Spirit" meeting at the church to chat with a friend working the sound booth, and he revealed two other MAJOR issues that have been holding me back in life and walking in the authority that I have. Wow. I am again blown away. And He is still not done with me.
PTL
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Life Hurts
We are only past the third day in this week's teaching of Healing Life's Hurts and so much has gone down. We've discussed the topics of the importance of inner healing, Forgiveness (you know 90% of our freedom from the junk in our life comes from forgiveness? from releasing those from whom we have taken offense? amazing, right?), Stony Hearts, Soul Ties, Judgments, Inner Vows, and Ungodly Beliefs (things that appear to be true and that we think are true but according to God's Word are totally false e.g. "I can never succeed" "I will always be alone" etc).
Again the revelation has come to me in spurts, which I am learning to appreciate because with all the crap we carry around, I don't think I would be able to handle it well in any bigger doses. Yesterday we also went through Walking in the Light, which is where in our small groups we confessed to each other things that we have kept hidden in our lives. When we confide in another and bring to light things that have been hidden, the power they have over our lives diminish incredibly. Today we went through a checklist of common UGB's (ungodly beliefs), repented, and established new godly beliefs to take their places. I have quite a few and I just checked off the ones on the list; who knows how many others are operating in my life! I still have a lot of processing to do in this area.
This week at the church there is a Partners in Harvest conference going on for pastors in "sister" church from all over the world. This afternoon there was an intern fair for us where some of the pastors told us about intern opportunities for us students when we finish school here. Some were from the area and others were in the States, the UK, and even one from China. Currently, I don't have plans for after "graduation" so hearing about these opportunities was really cool. Maybe there will be a door opening up to one of them, and maybe not, but this can at least get me thinking and dreaming. (Mom, keep your passport current)
And I'll end with a shout out to my wonderful roomies, Erin and Esther. Thanks for the awesome music and providing jams for our/my random dance parties. Lillian, I love you too and trust you are having a blast in Mozambique!
Peace.
Again the revelation has come to me in spurts, which I am learning to appreciate because with all the crap we carry around, I don't think I would be able to handle it well in any bigger doses. Yesterday we also went through Walking in the Light, which is where in our small groups we confessed to each other things that we have kept hidden in our lives. When we confide in another and bring to light things that have been hidden, the power they have over our lives diminish incredibly. Today we went through a checklist of common UGB's (ungodly beliefs), repented, and established new godly beliefs to take their places. I have quite a few and I just checked off the ones on the list; who knows how many others are operating in my life! I still have a lot of processing to do in this area.
This week at the church there is a Partners in Harvest conference going on for pastors in "sister" church from all over the world. This afternoon there was an intern fair for us where some of the pastors told us about intern opportunities for us students when we finish school here. Some were from the area and others were in the States, the UK, and even one from China. Currently, I don't have plans for after "graduation" so hearing about these opportunities was really cool. Maybe there will be a door opening up to one of them, and maybe not, but this can at least get me thinking and dreaming. (Mom, keep your passport current)
And I'll end with a shout out to my wonderful roomies, Erin and Esther. Thanks for the awesome music and providing jams for our/my random dance parties. Lillian, I love you too and trust you are having a blast in Mozambique!
Peace.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Let's Go To Timmy's
First of all, I would like to make a shout out to the lovely and dear-to-my-heart, Julie Hanley, a faithful follower of this blog. Girl, I love you and it was fabulous to chat with you via Skype the other day. Thanks for keeping my brother (somewhat) inline. Can't wait to see you soon!
Last Monday we had off so six of us girls took the bus/subway downtown to do some sightseeing, I mean, shopping. It was a rather dreary day with rain sprinkling on us but we got to travel up and down Queen Street and visit a few shops. Some of us also went to Eaton Centre, a very nice shopping mall; a lovely experience. On movie night we got to watch the new Robin Hood movie. Tis a movie (aka not wholly realistic) but quite an enjoyable one, especially due to the attractive actor. :)
To pass the time on Saturday I learned the game of Munchkin which took about 2 hours, and then signed myself up to play a game of Axis and Allies, the extended and more involved version of Risk. That took about 3 hours before we left and went to dinner; I did not return to finish the game (sorry, Dale).
Recently we had the first installment of Staff v Student soccer. In utter honesty, the students have great room for improvement. It was a sad display of futbol for sure but hopefully we will get stronger and play better together as the time goes on. I heard rumors that the next game will be indoors, probably a good thing since it's getting colder. I am not a huge fan of 'cold' but I have determined not to complain about it this year. haha. Other fun things to fill the time we have off include walking to coffee shops as I have mentioned, painting or attempting to be creative in the Creative Room, and holding 'dance parties' in the lounges. More good things to come!
Peace.
Last Monday we had off so six of us girls took the bus/subway downtown to do some sightseeing, I mean, shopping. It was a rather dreary day with rain sprinkling on us but we got to travel up and down Queen Street and visit a few shops. Some of us also went to Eaton Centre, a very nice shopping mall; a lovely experience. On movie night we got to watch the new Robin Hood movie. Tis a movie (aka not wholly realistic) but quite an enjoyable one, especially due to the attractive actor. :)
To pass the time on Saturday I learned the game of Munchkin which took about 2 hours, and then signed myself up to play a game of Axis and Allies, the extended and more involved version of Risk. That took about 3 hours before we left and went to dinner; I did not return to finish the game (sorry, Dale).
Recently we had the first installment of Staff v Student soccer. In utter honesty, the students have great room for improvement. It was a sad display of futbol for sure but hopefully we will get stronger and play better together as the time goes on. I heard rumors that the next game will be indoors, probably a good thing since it's getting colder. I am not a huge fan of 'cold' but I have determined not to complain about it this year. haha. Other fun things to fill the time we have off include walking to coffee shops as I have mentioned, painting or attempting to be creative in the Creative Room, and holding 'dance parties' in the lounges. More good things to come!
Peace.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Father Heart Week
Barry Adams came to speak on the Father Heart of God this past week which included the topics of forgiveness, the orphan spirit, identity, and the roles of mothers/fathers in relationships. He shared with us the Father's Love Letter video which you can watch here. It is a compilation of Bible verses and is touching and powerful. We went through releasing our parents from any past hurts and let Daddy God minister His love to us. Lots of tears all around and hearts touched for sure. I kinda went into the week hoping for this tidal wave of revelation and love to basically crush me into knowing - really knowing - the Father's love, buuuuutt it didn't really happen like that. Revelations came to me more in the form of multiple little light bulbs flashing on in my mind. I probably survive better this way. God is so good. Healing is definitely happening in my heart concerning my relationship with my dad which is very welcomed and I'm realizing the areas where I have given God faulty characteristics that don't belong to Him. He really is the perfect Father but I haven't fully grasped this yet.
At CBN this week Barry spoke on Fear and Freedom. The image was a lion caged in a zoo. God wants to free us from whatever is holding us back but often, like a prisoner who is finally released from prison, we don't know what freedom is or how to walk out in it. The unfamiliar scares us and we are apprehensive to actually come out of the cage that has held us so long. For me, no longer. I may have "sea legs" and be a bit wobbly at first but I choose to embrace the freedom that Christ granted me on the cross. I am free, and now I plan on walking out in that freedom. Hold me to it.
At CBN this week Barry spoke on Fear and Freedom. The image was a lion caged in a zoo. God wants to free us from whatever is holding us back but often, like a prisoner who is finally released from prison, we don't know what freedom is or how to walk out in it. The unfamiliar scares us and we are apprehensive to actually come out of the cage that has held us so long. For me, no longer. I may have "sea legs" and be a bit wobbly at first but I choose to embrace the freedom that Christ granted me on the cross. I am free, and now I plan on walking out in that freedom. Hold me to it.
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